Flashbacks

I met up with a friend from law school who is studying for the bar exam right now. Talking to her made me relieved and shocked, all over again, that I had passed. The memories of that horrible, wonderful time came crashing in on me. Horrible because of the feeling of being helpless and overwhelmed with work, all at the same time. Wonderful because I spent every day with the man I loved.

It's such a relief to be finished with studying, and so gratifying to see my name with "Attorney" under it. But sometimes I think I'd like to go back for a day, so I could wake up with him, spend the day with him, laugh with him like we used to. So it's bittersweet. To be where I wanted to be in life, and still second guess my own happiness.